Playlist of the week

안녕!!

I'm currently procrastinating because I actually have a tad load of revisions to do but as always Maretta loves procrastinatig so why not.

Ok quick updates: June holidays is coming to an end in less than a week and every single day after that is normal school with mock papers after school. The following weeks are prelims and that is basically it. Mind you, I'm not complainig bcs I actually do feel that it is good to have a timely revision that is scheduled just to help lost souls like me who are completely done with studying so, thanks, sc! No, honestly, I am only done with revision, but I sincerely enjoy school *insert a cool emoji* 

Ok I have stuff to do waiting next to me on my bed so here are my current playlist which is definitely not updated but I mean Maretta is lame so a lame playlist will be the best. Here ya go:

1. Send my love(to your new lover) - Adele

2. Re-bye - 악동뮤지션 (Akdong Musician)

3. Numb - Linkin Park

4. Because Of You - Kelly Clarkson

5. Liquor Store Blues - Bruno Mars

6. A Sky Full Of Stars - Coldplay

7. 우리 사랑하지 말아요 - Big Bang

8. Let It Go - FROZEN... nah kiddig it's by James Bay

lets get going peeps!

reserved by, 

Ms. Maretta Simon

Updates on my life (woooops)

I always find myself short of time for blogging eventhough i truly enjoy the experience of writing and posting my thoughts, just spilling them here with no particular intention but merely for the pure joy of sharing about the odds in my life. I love it yet I cannot do much of it, how ironic HAHAHAHA.

Okay basically, April was a hectic month for me. And sadly for my wallet too *cries

I had my school's carnival on the 9th, then the magically emotional Macédoine, my first ever proper band concert(which would most probs be my last) at SOTA on the 16th, and the following week was my sissy's holy matrimony (CONGRATS SIS PROUD OF YOU). I basically had no time for myself in April. but thatMs not even the worst. Every single week after that was my friends' concerts, and bcs im an A1 friend so I attended all of em. it's okay im gg back next week (hint: mom i need more cash) lol. Life's been busy as always, yet i feel like i'm way more emotionally drained than physically, which is kinda weird. Well the instability in emotiona and mood swings might forget to come by years ago and then BAM! they decided to come by with a bang all at once now. the world and the way it works are funny i guess. So unpredictable yet so quizzically easy to expect. I am being more sentimental than ever but i totally don't take it as a negative thing. I mean, it's just a phase in your life when you are a little bit more volatile, and that's it. I still dont bite, so dont worry. worse case scenario is just that I mighy nibble on your nails. nah joke nibbling on other people's naiks is jus gross. ok im basically talking about irrelevant topics now. whatever maaaan

So instead of dwelling in thise negative emotions let's just throw back to my awesome band concert! Enjoy the photos man im alrd missing all my #trumpetesttrumpets buddies<3 yall surely made me feel at home, so much to our friendship guys!:))))

(as always missing caroline but then again who cares abt her nah jk she's fine)

Oh and i think i need to make a huge announcement bcs i have achieved one of the mostvawesome things in sg: I KNOW EXACTLY HOW TO GO TO THE ULMTIMATE PRATA PLACE!!! yes upper thomson prata imma be your patron not kidding man. So adeline, winy and I basically just blindly had too much time to waste so we decided to go for some snacks at our usual plaza sing. Then someone had a crazy idea of gg for prata. Wait for it the best part is yt to come. Then the two of them devoured 빙수 straight after prata(applaud them pls). Additionally, we decided to be cool kids my not going home at 8.30pm so why didnt we just go and roam around sg? yes sure of course! We went to gardens by the bay after that HAHAHAHA. but the garden rhapsody was worth it though. We laid down under the stone chairs  and really just immerse ourselves in the beautiful harmony of the orchestral pieces and the intricately crafted super trees. it was amazing so I should let you should feast your eyes too!

HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEEHHEHEHEHE

Im actually thinking of doing some youtube videos since i have the camera for that but..... I have 0 ability in editing videos. Yeah i did basic editing skills for school projects but im not confident yet HAHAHAHA plus the fact that prelimsare coming so i think i dont have sufficient time to learn how to master the basica anytime soon. Plus not many people are actually willing to see a random person like me talk about whatever it is HAHAHAHA but still anyways, i will do what i want so i can assure you sometime in the future maretta is gg to come up with a youtube video!!!!!!!

HAHAHAHAHAHA

kay im addicted to plant vs. zombie 2 (again) so just like normal people whonare addicted to things, i need to take care of my zen garden and defeat all  those annoying gargantuars and friends. 再见朋友!!

2 more years to legal age!!!

I HOLA AMIGOSSSSSSSS

it feels like years have passed since i last updated this blog. mind you, im still alive and well :p

as you can infer from the title, i turned 16 a few weeks ago. many things have happened throughout my entire existence, both happy and sweet memories. i sincerely feel tremendously blessed to have found a warm, new family here in Singapore. Although my parents and I are not the closest one ever ( yeah we are far from that HAHA ), but i surprisingly did not feel that lonely and sentimental on my birthday. people say that when you are away from home, your heart will unconciously long for that feeling of being physically 'home'. that statement is true to a certain extent; i do miss home sometimes(are you shocked yet), but i have finally learnt the real answer to finding a home away from home. 

this might sound foreign or even illogical to some of you readers, but trust me, atthis age  of 16, it is not impossible to be able to settle in and feel utterly accepted by the new society, even with the fact that you are living in a completely new place , sureounded with people you have no idea of. it is very possible. so for those who are unsure if they should stidy abroad during their teenage years, please follow what your little heart says and accept the challenge of being independent and mature. ok so the only reason why i sound like some overseas student body who advocates studying abroad, i got into that feelings simply because i am now a grand senior!!! yeah scgs has selected the new batch of indonesian scholars. i still cant get over the fact that o levels is happening this year( i have both ss and bio paper 2 on the same day; TRAGIC)

more on the celebratory mood, i cant thank all my friends enough for all that they have done for me. REALLY GUYS, I APPRECIATE ALL OF YOU<3

i know that i need not say out loud to the whole big world who you are since you guys must know deep within that im grateful for whatever you have done for my birthday(+my life in general)!! thisbsoinds very cheesy but WHO CARES this is my blog anyway :P

all these stories are invalid if i do not show evidence so here ya go thirsty (thisbis a positive metaphor HERE) people: 

depicts our real relationship; note that im normally the biggest bully out of them all

(L to R, back to front : Friscilia, Michelle, Vanessa, Winy, Jessica, Melissa, Maretta, Adeline)

a normal picture to save our reputation

had an amazing dinner with my family(ish)

L to R : Ko Cei, Cc Uling, Maretta, Ko Alvin 

the annoying balloon is still staring at me after almost a week my gosh *moon face

L to R : Yinn, Aarthi, Maretta, Sasha

this is a super late cny greetings to y'all but i was home for cny this year!!! ( dont ask me how did i get the permission to do so :p)

the fact that im slanted to one side ( how is that even possible) + the cheongsam was too big for me cant stop me from posting this intricately sewn cheongsam!! stole this from mama anyway (sorz mam love ya HAHA)

there are certainly more pictures but  my laziness to import the pictures and rendering them to better qualities + editing the lights and contrast beats the will to share all these happy moments HEHEHE

anyways, i have REALLLYYYY REALLYY GOOD NEWS(to me hihi): this is tentative but still!! im excited as hell 

i might go and watch Genee in Sydney this December!! omg i cannot wait i CANT WAIT NO MORE om this means that im another day closer to my grade 8 exam!!! God, please help me to be calm and present the best smile ever complimented with the best techniques i have!!! im so bored with grade 8's syllable but im still scared for the exam nooooo

anyway, i need to bear ms Tan's nagging for the whole week but watching my childhood dream is one amazing fact that can boost my spirit whenever im feeling down!!

waaaait im not gg to end this post just yet

LEMME TELL YOU GUYS 

in case youbare wondering why am i super weird writing about all these craps 

it is most probably bcs im a secondary 4student now. the reality of being a sec4 has not really sunk in until about March (i guess?) therefore whenever i have free time to blog, i do so by putting all my heart in it. this results in super lengthy blog post with irrelevant and incoherent content inside so mind you free souls with much more things to do, you know what to expect the next time i post something HAHAHAHA 

tbh, i have mixed feelings about this blog. as i get okder, ibstarted thinking about having a more private life where no outsiders really know what is gg on with my life. i mean, im not one of those kardashians who make money by revealing about their full-of-fights lives which are certainly hilarious ( all hail kimmy k), instead im just another girl living abroad with many new stories to tell others. but as i pondered about stop blogging, the more i cannot hold back that side of me that simply urges me to always share my rants to others. if you know me personally, you would have realized that im a very vocal person, yet i always carry the role of an advisor and listener. it is never a balanced relationship you are going to have if you are friends with me. i rarely talk about my own feelings or if im feeling troubled and that i need help. the reason to thisbis simple: i dont want to spread negativity to the people around me. the world is already filled with judgemental people who are discontented with their own lives that they decided to judge on others' characteristics to find satisfaction in others' misery. i mean, isnt it sad looking at our fellow friends who are oblivious to the fact that personal contentment never comes from others' sufferings? im not being hypocritical here by saying that im always the 'angel' in my circle of friends and that people around me are all judgemental people, but i would like to minimize that ruptured social fabric that we have now. i am an extreme optimist who believes that by working hard and showing passion in everything we do, there is almost nothing that is impossible. so through this deep monologue that i have repetitively at night, i decided to not think too much about the reader of my blog. even if there is no one who read this crappy page of mine, it is completely fine. im happy being able to share my views to the world, im happy that i can find comfort in telling random people i do not know about my boring daily ups and downs. it is just my personal preference of confiding in people i do not know at all. so dont worry(not sure if anyone will), i will never close this page. even if i regret whatever I said in my previous posts, i will let this page be an evident of my bittersweet life which i am sure, is filled with many amazing yet unpredictble experiences.

all in all, i have 2 tests tomorrow and i filed in all that are going to be tested neatly, put them in a special file with different tabs to organize them better, and put it next to my backpack so that i will not forget it. i went to the band room for cca, get out of it after 3 hours, skipped happily back home just to find myself empty handed. THANKS MY FORGETFUL SELF. ( you are welcome) 

it is not the real o levels yet so WHATEVAAAAAAAA

bye friends, i'll be sure to update once i have more free time:))))))

reserved by,

msmarettasimon

playlist of the week

AYE FRIENDS!!

before catching up with my current life (hint: life's great, life's a bliss at the moment) let me share myplalist for the week to y'all beautiful souls;

(in no particular order, just bear in mind that im biased af with coldplay HE HE HE HE)

1. Hymn For The Weekend - Coldplay

2. Everglow - Coldplay

3. Fun (feat. Tove Lo) - Coldplay

4. Hello - Adele

5. Love Yourself - Justin Bieber

6. Hotline Bling - Drake

7. Apology (지못미) - ikon

you know what i might sound like im angry but my blogger dashboard is not working and im just typing in capslock for no particular reason but the weird problem im having with my keyboard.

im signing off despite wanting to spill all my excitement about coldplay's newest album soooo behold readers

OOMPALOOMPA GREETINGS

HELLO

ITS ME

I WAS WONDERING IF AFTER ALL THESE YEARS YOU WOULD LIKE TO MEET. (plays adele's hello as background music)

ok peeps these lyrics are so suitable for my blog. i havent touched this site for yeaaaaaarssss but people im still alive. breathing leaping jumping enjoying all the rough seas i have had after a whole year away from home.

its kinda impossible to let you readers (if i have any i dont really care :p) catch up with the whole academic year i had but i can ensure you that i have grown to a better(thisbword is vague but) person. at least my hair and nails grow.

im thinking of ranting again but its justthis  magical moment where surprisingly, i have not much to rant about! its not that in on a roller coaster ride up all along this year, but its just that when i stop and take a moment to smell the flowers, im just all smiles. this is starting to sound a lil bit melancholic and i strongly dislike all-things-melancholic so dont worry peeps. 

anywayy, there are loads of fun stuffs that had happened this year therefore im sharing it to you guys here! i hope i could post some outfit posts but i have no one who are willing to take pictures for me( i swear im a nice person:( ) ok lol no.

its probably the hustle and bustle of this thriving city that deprives me of time to sort out outfits to post. but heres what i wore to a musical about mr. lee kwan yew, a great leader the world had lost earlier this year. 

(featuring sasha-my-main and the photobombing-deskmate-who-turn-out-to-be-a-llama-drawer-freak)

cropped top-zara; straight-cut pants-mango; black high heels-charles&keith

To say that I have changed much might have been an understatement, so lets just take me as a fluid with no particular shape which in this sense, represents my life. I have not really changed in terms of character; i am still that spontaneous girl, just a teeny bit more cynical now. i still loves dressing up and looking nice in public, its just that the love for t shirt and shorts have taken a larger space in my heart now. dont worry im not gonna go out looking oafish and all messed up, its just that i dress up less lately. life in singapore is just tougher that i need to juggle with loads more commitments than i used to back in indonesia.

besides the changing school life, i have found myself new homes too. As home is where the heart is, I have learnt to find for the right temporary homes now. Singapore has always been a great city for me, but since i have found my second physical home of oldham hall, never have I not tried to step out of my comfort zone and build trust in others to be my non-biological family. I have found myself great friends in my school and here in the hostel. A family I would like to fight for, a family who has come as one as the greatest blessings in my life. so to those people out there who have welcomed me to be a part of your lives, massive thank you to you guys, really<3


moving on to something rather unexpected, i have broaden my music preferences(shocking from a somewhat hard-headed maretta, uh?) this, my friends, is so unexpected that everyone around me are caught unprepared. literally. since the night big bang held their Made tour concert in Singapore, im paralyzed. yep, you judgemental minds can go wild and stare at me and cringe a little probably, but i just need to share this. I dont care what people view big bang as, but i have to admit that their stage attitude and performance is amazing. to those lost souls out there, the big bang i am referring to is not the big bang theory which I also LURRVEEE (cheers to Jim parsons as sheldon cooper) but the korean boy band(?) BIG BANG. its not that i have been like one of those jerks who bashes kpop all the time, i was just merely disinterested in their music back then. ok so this is how my love for them started growing. my older sister and her friends bought bigbang's concert tickets in sg, then my mom went " why dont you guys buy one for maretta?" so I was like ok yeah I wanna go since there's G dragon whos pretty cool. I knew some of their songs anyway (perks of having a sister who has liked them since forever). Not wanting to look like an idiot who spent S$200+ for a concert only knowing 1/5 of their songs, I went to do some research on them and Bam! boy how can i not be captivated by them! ok child enough story telling let the pictures speak

yeays to blurry pics because i cant be bothered to choose and edit plus the fact that cameras are actually banned from entering the venue so criminal maretta am lazy 

OK IM TIRED OF TYPING NOW

last but not least!!!! COLDPLAY MY ULTIMATE BABY'S NEW ALBUM (A HEAD FULL OF DREAMS) IS GOING TO BE RELEASED ON DEC4!!!!!

But my eldest sis said no to lending me her card to preorder the album on itunes!!!!! *cry a river

but chris said that they are going for a huge-scale world tour next year so lets gather in prayers so that they will come to asia or singapore to be exact!!!! IF THEY DO IM GONNA DIE.

CHECK OUT THEIR LATEST SINGLE ADVENTURE OF A LIFETIME HERREEEEEEE. ITS A BOMB! FREAKIN EARGASM

Im going to be updating you guys more frequently, okay? *pinky promise;)


sending lurve from here to wherever you are,

xx

MSMARETTASIMON

broke the bone!!

21st May, 2015--let the countdown begin

heyeyey to every single soul reading this blogpost cause im just so high and HAPPPPPYYYY now i cannot contain this im gonna burst ((ok enough))

after idk how long of vacuum in blogging i FINALLY have the time to sit back, relax and pour out whatever is in my mind, believe me, scgs, is crazy. mad. ok not literally. or probably, singapore is. again, not literally. the things about the school is that the workload is massive. it's like you are always 10m away from a grenade that could just explode anytime it wants, either it is due to the direct exposure to the sunlight or whatever morbid reasons. life here is tough, in terms of its number of homework and oh bloody tests. when you come from a school with only 4 exams and 2 major exams with probably 10 tests in a year to 3-5 tests/week you are probably gonna be blasted by the workload. and mind you, im not playing with the statistics at all.

ok so big question, do i feel stressed?  to be very very honest, not really. i have a super high stress tolerancy, but the environment here is what makes me think a lot. its not that im not this person who overthinks a lot too previously, i am. but coming here has brought that trait to a whole new level. im not creative; im imaginative. I would play scenarios in my head and be this super observant girl who's silently psycho-analyzing ppl yet tis super talkative. this weird combination of characteristics might be the biggest contribution to my stress level, but truly having a sister in singapore whom i can meet every week is one of the biggest blessings i have. so if my sister is reading this, you are my pillar of strength, cie.you are. 

today ir rather yesterday as this is 12.01, i have FINISHED MY LAST TEST OF THE TERM. and it was GEOG. do you get  how EPIC it is!!! i kinda survived the LORMs and now ha who is there to tell me what i want to do afterwards. this feeling of contentment and liberation is something ive never experienced before, as i honestly like tests then. ok now i still have that 'like' towards tests, but its more to a love-hate relationship now.

enough of the emo talk now here is GREAT NEWS. im gonna go to NUS dentistry lab for my P/W WOOOIITSSSSSSSSSSS OMG I CANT 

in case you have no idea who i really am im super passionate abt bio. <at least for now> but this is literally one of the biggest gifts i have ever received. i mean how many ppl actually have the chance to do P/W in sec3 and going to nus dentistry!!! im super excited i cannot wait no longer no more danggggggggg

an important announcement : I GONNA GO BACK HOME ON 10 JUNE *cries of happiness* so i prob gonna be able to take some photoshoot and #ootds so lets cross our fingers!!

plus i am wearing a stud now which means my ear hole which has been left alone and single and sad and in despair for 5+ years is bot closed yet wow good job maretta!!

ok im getting to excited so 

찰자요!!!

schoir concert with megan and michelle performing!! it was SUPERB

(L-R) melissa, yoke, shania, venny, megan, jessica, simon, adeline, winy, friscilia, vanessa 

(bottom) simon, michelle

HEYYYYYY I HAVE SO MUCH TO SHARE I GONNA EXPLODE WITH WORDS!

ok that probably terrifies everyone

I just finished my Malay Oral exam just now (gosh dont be too shocked)

I am currently feeling extremely proud that finally there is something in Malay Language that I can not suck at. 

Lemme tell you honestly. Malay is undoubtedly my worst subject here. Worst.

It possesses an unexpectedly quirky grammar and sentence structure which just makes me confused if every sentence I write is grammatically correct.

Well, there is this argument where people say that malay is super similar to Bahasa Indonesia which is probably my mother tongue, (how can you expect me to remember what language I first started to talk with, duh. ) ((ok im just too forgetful)) but it is actually that fact which causes the irony. 

It is common sense that with the close proximity of the two, I wont need to really pick up a completely alien language and still do well in o level for its HIGHER choice, but this thin line between the two is actually the source of my anxiety and insecurity. 

Some common words in Bahasa can mean an utterly different thing in Malay which sometimes might even be offensive. I am sad that malay is dang hard but its ok i know acing it is just a matter of time, as there are many predecessors who have gone through the exact same challenge yet still flourish in the end.

Moral of this story : you just wasted 3 mins to read my not-so-important rants. I dont like to complain so is this thing above a complaint? idk. gosh im really writing rubbish help 

OK enough stupid stuff.

This week is actually the International Friendship Week! 

I just found out about it too on Monday, so happy international friendship week to everyone out there! (virtual) hugs and kisses are being sent via internet to your email, just wait for them, as their arrival will make your gadget beep so loudly that it creates extreme vibration and the ground where it is placed is going to vibrate and mini earthquake will happen and you will be swallowed inside the ground and go to this dark tunnel towards another dimension where Chris Martin the handsome guy with brilliant voice is waiting for you on a fat donkey-like unicorn and you will be the queen of a new world... 

(OK Maretta compose yourself)

Oh and I am definitely not an IT person so that email will probs be there ages after everyone started going to Mars to eat from a popular pasta restaurant.

This morning Michelle, another Indonesian girl, and I were on the platform teaching the whole school some basic Indonesian expression like "Apa kabar" "selamat pagi" "Saya cinta kamu" "Terima kasih" which means how are you, good morning, i love you, thank you respectively. We were just giggling to each other but the response we get from the school was surprisingly GREAAAAAT. i felt so priviledged to be able to teach them some basic words in my own language, which is Bahasa Indonesia.

This proudness and uniqueness that I felt just now was a totally new feeling for me. Never did I know how much love and pride I have for my own country Indonesia. Now it only gives me even more desire to go back home :(

And I will go back in JUNE!!!!!!

next week all of our term 1 marks and grades are out so

so

so

so

so

I will now what date I will be home!!!!!!

Lets keep our fingers crossed that I can go home ASAP cause I feel homesick now, okay just for now though.

I actually have a lot to say but chemistry is testing on metals and

and

and

I CRY ITS A CRAZY LOAD OF MEMORY WORK 

p.s If you are feeling down, try listening to codplay's songs, they heal. they really do. they are the awesome-est bunch of people that have ever lived. 

p.p.s my fave song is fix you but that's when you are deppressed and feeling low so ya

i want them now. I DEMAND, NOW. (+edmund ofcoz :()

bye guys......

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the title is called a title

i suck at introduction but wait what its 2k15 :000000

I have been abandoning this blog for almost half a year probably? 

time flashed and who knows I'm no longer home. 

I actually needed to read through my last post to be able to write something with at least some relevance with other posts.

Before continuing on, let me warn you, this post is gonna be wordy. w-o-r-d-y :0

SO mother of all so-s (idk what this really means) to be honest I dont have the courage to delete this blog as it is where I can actually view my so-called life progress from a tiny kiddo to still a kiddo cause I refuse to grow up (at least I claim so). Through this decision I hope that I can be comitted to writing posts although not regularly but as long as I still do.

I hope you are getting excited and cuious by what I mean that I am no longer home although I bet no one really wants to know, I am gonna write a wordy post anyway.

To make things clear, I am currently living in Singapore. yas and I am here on my own.

ok not 'literally' alone as I have my sister and friends here, but it really is a journey of leaving behind all the people you love, the routine you thought was a torture but it turned out be something you miss dearly, the hideous spots and roads of your hometown, your home. Plainly speaking, it was indeed, it WAS my biggest wish to be here, studying in scgs, living independently, everthing.

But now it just does not feel the same. 

What I thought and assumed before I am really here is completely contrasting; some in a good way, some in the worse. 

However, it was still my prudent choice to be here and I cannot say that I regret coming all the way here because I have faith in myself that this is a fruitful journey worth the rough seas. 

[this post is getting serious and depressed gosh]

Not to scare everyone of scgs and Singapore, I think it might be just me who is not adapted to the education system and the circle of friends I have here.

It's pretty normal, I think, to feel kind of alone at times cause a piece of your heart was left behind, buried under the roof of your previous precious school where you spent the time of your life there.

And I am not even the type that breaks down easily. Instead, I am more of the polished rocks that hold the high energy caused by the plunging breakers of life challenges. ok I just felt that I had enough of geog, I never imagined having soooooo many geog lesson in a week it's just kinda tiring to me.

School here has been super hardcore in terms of its tests and homework, especially when you are being watched closely by the teachers. that sometimes lead me to comparing what I had before and what the reality is like in the future.

In order to make this post free from the alleged title of 'just Maretta's random rants that have a huge possibility to change to an essay full of complaints' let me tell you how I feel life in here is specifically like, especially school life.

Think of yourself as a busy bee living and working in a bee colony, where there are hudred other worker bees trying their best to serve the queen bee.

That is how competition in scgs is like as I can foresee.

The difference is that I can still not find any queen bee yet. yet.

So yeah, competition is the daily feed here.

But to be (again) honest, I love competition.

I just find the number of tests ad homework given to us irrelevant at times.

Overall, it is a nice school with nice green environment and caring teachers, probably it is just that I still cannot find that group of friends (excpet those who came with me) that I can really bond with.

It takes time, I know and I am pretty satisfied with what I have now.

As far as I can see, school's gonna get better in terms of friends, I strongly believe so.

Ugh actually I JUST REALLY MISS MY FRIENDS back home.

and my school.

it is that feeling where you get up every morning knowing you will have a bunch of activities tgt with them, shoulder feeling light and giggles are never wiped off your face.

I ALSO MISS DANCING SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH

anyway I gonna get what I really really want in a few week times;)

I have no idea how much I have written and how unorganized this post is, cause I basically just pour out whatever I have in mind here, so yeah.

I just had this Service Learning Carnival in school where we are staying in school to prepare for a self-orgnized event to serve the elderly. 

All sec3s are involved and it was HELL at first but the real day of carnival was AWESOME to me. 

Looking at those smiling faces of the elderly when they played games and just talk to us students just melt my heart. 

I think a lot about my grandparents and I cannot wait to give them a BIG BIG HUG :3333

Oh and I was involved in performance and the ppl are very supportive too.

I still couldnt believe it that I SANG I freakin sang with this croaking-worse-than-a-crow voice (of course backed up by the choir ha) in the performance itself.

I think I should stop here cause apparently my eyes are giving up and I just love sleeping above most thing on earth. LAST FUN THING TO TELL : OBS IS ON THE COMING MONDAY.

yeay can I scream.

I am going to go kayaking and sleeping in tent which is completely COOL cant wait man gosh I cant.

Okay I should really stop.

Last last note to everyone and self : I am blessed to be where I am at; what lies in front of me is in His hands and I trust Him that He has the best choice and plans for me. 

----------------------------------ADIOS AMIGO--------------------------

changes

Hey!

made up my mind to kinda 'change' my blog from 'fashion blog wannabe' to simply just idk a blog?

lifestyle, prolly 

well, does that even matter.

ive been passively writing in this blog, well that is if anyone even notices aha.

I procrastinate a loooot nowadays, a lot that i can stay up late just scrolling instagram when there's actually nothing too exciting.

been trying to change that habit tho.

made myself an agenda and reminders to keep myself posted to the homework i got.

you might not realise - september is coming to an end.

that marks a month left for me before i literally leave medan, and that. freaking. freak. me. out.

somethimes you're a bit worried about the future, thats human nature.

and ive been worrying. idk why either, thoughts keep on bugging me; what to choose for cca, with whom im gonna be sleeping with, little little things basically.

anyways, i made a good progress. recently.

ive been spending months together with my 'new' friends and we're closer to each other. that's a reaaaally good thing :) happy happy

ok its not that its hard for me to make friends, just that they are going to be the ppl who'll be fighting alongside with me. 

been buying sets of stationery 

try to make a proper packing list

hm got no other things to say aha.

lemme tell you something.

this post is boring so just bear with it ok

even i think tis boring

but i just have that vigorous spirit in me wanting to write a blog post HE HE HE

my peers and i have been crazy for food lately. real cray.

every friday we'll be strolling down the street to a nearby plaza(thank God theres a plaza) to have our gastronomic needs fulfilled. good food good companions indeed hahaha.

so heres pictures of our #foodieventure

(its only 2 pics but wtv)

                     me, adeline, melissa

honey i should stop

but i want to keep on typing

help

help

i have an a maths test on monday

trigonometry

i die

A MATHS

bye

and piles of homework for the following week

someone please slap me

but you know what

dad's bringing me to brastagi tomorrow

yeay man

getawayyyyyy

been years since i last visited brastagi

i love meeting the chubby bunniez

with chubby stomachs

and chubby cheeks

i cant resist

OK I GOT BACK TO MY SENSES

FAREWELL THY LOVELY READERS

DONT BE DESPERATE; FOR MY LOVE TO YOU IS ENDLESS

 

*Ok ignore the last lines i never said anything near to that*

bye honey bombs

say what it's FREAKING AUGUST

Dear readers, 

dated 1st of August. 

August.

I repeat, AUGUST.

just like a celeb on hiatus here i am.

man i rly miss the blogging but i think either the world is rushing me or i am a tortoise in a herd of lean sheeps(they r fast enuf ok). 

blogging is always in my blood, sharing thoughts, taking pictures, cherishing memories and pouring it out. it's sad to me that i am not as active. 

i have been thinking a lot lately, mostly about the future and how life goes. 

(i might sound stressed but believe me im not)

ok so first, in the last post i told ya that something big is happening this year, and it is almost time for it. 

cant believe im leaving hometown this oct(or maybe nov), it felt so long away but now it's completely different.

even i have the worries of not being able to meet my best buds anm, and honestly, it's rly saddening. 

meeting them feels like a blessing, really.

i feel mixed emotions; fear of what the future holds, yet so excited browsing the seniors' pictures of their school lives, and the force of thinking about things on daily basis is inevitable.

for my best buds, thankyou for cheering me up and supporting me, even the simplest gift or advice rly makes me feel loved. i just hope we are bonded and that bond will still be tight no matter where we are. 

seriously guys, cherish moments and be grateful everyday.

secondly, i thought of shutting this blog and make a new one, as i have some posts quite long ago which might be embarassing lol.

but this blog has been a silent medium for me to view the transformations i have in life, that it is actually a precious little thing.

i might not be able to take shots of what i prefer to wear as often, but i'll try. 

another news is, i started dieting again ahaa. 

gaining back up is super easy damn!

prolly after i got the body i wanted i'll start posting again? lol we'll see!

oh and i tried doing yoga by searching on youtube 'yoga for beginners' dang i think by beginners those trainers think we are of firm muscles when i am like a gooey jellyfish.

important note : beginners are not beginners(IF you get what i mean)

lastly, what i wrote above seems a lil cheesy and exaggerating, eh? maybe im more sensitive lately but listen. there are so many fears and challenges, you might shatter and sit in the corner of a room not wanting to talk to anyone, you never know; so share the love you got now and always remind yourself that you are blessed, you should be grateful for today. 

future is grim as i can see, but when you are strong and tough, it might only grizzle instead of raining torentially. 

i would like to believe in myself that i am able and for all of you girls out there who feel depressed to believe that you are strong.

if you think that today is your worst day, what about tomorrow? 

the waves may crush you even harder.

ok i deviate here and there but these are what i have in mind! :)

positive mind rules the world,honey.

oh oh oh 

i am in an urge to learn korean

too obsessed with this reality show 'the return of superman' esp 이서준<3

                    my moodbooster gosh

guys non kpop fan like me even thinks that this show is a magnet

THANK ME LATER FELLAS

anyway end of the post, haveeee a great day and be productive yeay!

blessings are on your way,

MSMARETTASIMON