(warning: an ubiquitous piece of teenage rants about school life ahead)
Have been q dead (figuratively and literally) because guess what? O levels is in 30+ days OHOHOHO my life is a joke *silently cries
Ok i feel the need to justify myself here before all you older peeps start to snort and be like "it's just your O levels man". Actually i think about it a loooooot, especially when i am daydreaming or just when i am stuck at this weird question during my revision for one of those subjects. I have been wondering if O levels really is "that" crucial for me. I mean, it technically does not determine your future simply because you can never know what really matters in the future by now. But then again, i have not had any major exams (my last one was in Indo before i entered my junior high school where i was actually directly affiliated to no matter what) in 5+ years so preparing for Os kind of overwhelm me in a sense. I appreciate the opinions of those who feel that O levels is just a piece of cake or just another stepping stone in your academic life if you: a. dont really care about your studies b. have gone through harder major exams c. are ready since forever to just ace this exam, or all other reasons.
(dont get me wrong you are always entitled to your own opinion as long as there is a rational reasoning behind it, and i appreciate that)
(wow i sound super politically correct)
(or even defensive)
(i am kind kf talking to myself)
(i have an eeyore doll named Freya and it is a Russian name which i like very much)
(i have lots of imaginary friends....)
----(ok back to my rants)----
But for me, i don't really know why either, I feel exceptionally pumped yet scared at the same time for Os. I have made soooo many holiday plans and all those little things I will do once I am free, yet there is this lingering worry about how well/badly I will actually do in the real Os. I feel that the stress and the worries are indeed necessary in a student's life, and at this age and point of time, O level really does seem like a mounting hurdle that prepares one holistically, yet not exhaustively. I personally find the experience enriching. Ok, I'm not gonna act all genius and be like "oh i dont feel tired from any of those revisions for Os" because I do feel that sometimes. There have been time where I just want to burn all those (geog) notes and be over with it simply because the focus everyone is putting on this one exam is just too much. I actually dont know what is the point of me ranting to everyone right here, but I just feel the need to let it all out. As much as you see me being worried and all here, I am like 180 degrees different IRL. I am a chill person and I just cannot change that. But sometimes the worries left a tingling pain in my mind, so to all those graduating students, I definitely am not the best advisor on things like this, but I feel your pain. I get the feeling of wanting to take major exams less seriously because our so-called "future" might not be determined by the results, but remember to look at things at the brighter side sometimes. Remember the many takeaways you have gained as a person when preparing for your exams. As always,remember to stop and smell the flowers and enjoy the journey, but you need to take into consideration the fact that you also reap what you sow, so how much effort you put into something will bear results equivalent to that. well unless you wake up with a silver spoon then that is another story for another time...
Besides all those, let me share some great moments of my life in general since it will be a boring post without any pictures, aint I right? Here ya go!
Teacher's Day in SCGS a while back. Be grateful for what you have friends! :) p.s thanks 4DG for giving me awesome memories these past 2 years. y'all are a lovely bunch 
had reaaaal fun bbq-ing with these hostel peeps aka the juniors+seniors<3
another bbq with the indons at west coast last week. fun times:)))
this actually looks like a legit photoshoot hahaha. Cheers to 5B2!:))
the three sisters reunited. ah i miss those days when meeting each other was just as easy as walking 10 steps out from my room
WAIT
lemme give you the details of my outfit of the day on that day since i have a few decent pictures HAHAHAHA
(dress: zara, shoes: zara, white socks: marks&spencer, backpack: longchamp, camo-coloured watch: marc by marc jacobs, and random black hair tie)
all right peeps, i have been writing too much hahahhaa.
see you in a bit!! i might come back in full-length blue hair yas. katy perry you are my inspiration hahahaha.
p.s check this cover of Katy Perry's Rise by Superfruit. I am head over heels for this!!! ----> https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=U85U3dPuiR4 thank me later guys go for check it out for some eargasmic music right there!! *love love love
reserved by,
MARETTASIMON
