I HOLA AMIGOSSSSSSSS
it feels like years have passed since i last updated this blog. mind you, im still alive and well :p
as you can infer from the title, i turned 16 a few weeks ago. many things have happened throughout my entire existence, both happy and sweet memories. i sincerely feel tremendously blessed to have found a warm, new family here in Singapore. Although my parents and I are not the closest one ever ( yeah we are far from that HAHA ), but i surprisingly did not feel that lonely and sentimental on my birthday. people say that when you are away from home, your heart will unconciously long for that feeling of being physically 'home'. that statement is true to a certain extent; i do miss home sometimes(are you shocked yet), but i have finally learnt the real answer to finding a home away from home.
this might sound foreign or even illogical to some of you readers, but trust me, atthis age of 16, it is not impossible to be able to settle in and feel utterly accepted by the new society, even with the fact that you are living in a completely new place , sureounded with people you have no idea of. it is very possible. so for those who are unsure if they should stidy abroad during their teenage years, please follow what your little heart says and accept the challenge of being independent and mature. ok so the only reason why i sound like some overseas student body who advocates studying abroad, i got into that feelings simply because i am now a grand senior!!! yeah scgs has selected the new batch of indonesian scholars. i still cant get over the fact that o levels is happening this year( i have both ss and bio paper 2 on the same day; TRAGIC)
more on the celebratory mood, i cant thank all my friends enough for all that they have done for me. REALLY GUYS, I APPRECIATE ALL OF YOU<3
i know that i need not say out loud to the whole big world who you are since you guys must know deep within that im grateful for whatever you have done for my birthday(+my life in general)!! thisbsoinds very cheesy but WHO CARES this is my blog anyway :P
all these stories are invalid if i do not show evidence so here ya go thirsty (thisbis a positive metaphor HERE) people:
depicts our real relationship; note that im normally the biggest bully out of them all
(L to R, back to front : Friscilia, Michelle, Vanessa, Winy, Jessica, Melissa, Maretta, Adeline)
a normal picture to save our reputation
had an amazing dinner with my family(ish)
L to R : Ko Cei, Cc Uling, Maretta, Ko Alvin
the annoying balloon is still staring at me after almost a week my gosh *moon face
L to R : Yinn, Aarthi, Maretta, Sasha
this is a super late cny greetings to y'all but i was home for cny this year!!! ( dont ask me how did i get the permission to do so :p)
the fact that im slanted to one side ( how is that even possible) + the cheongsam was too big for me cant stop me from posting this intricately sewn cheongsam!! stole this from mama anyway (sorz mam love ya HAHA)
there are certainly more pictures but my laziness to import the pictures and rendering them to better qualities + editing the lights and contrast beats the will to share all these happy moments HEHEHE
anyways, i have REALLLYYYY REALLYY GOOD NEWS(to me hihi): this is tentative but still!! im excited as hell
i might go and watch Genee in Sydney this December!! omg i cannot wait i CANT WAIT NO MORE om this means that im another day closer to my grade 8 exam!!! God, please help me to be calm and present the best smile ever complimented with the best techniques i have!!! im so bored with grade 8's syllable but im still scared for the exam nooooo
anyway, i need to bear ms Tan's nagging for the whole week but watching my childhood dream is one amazing fact that can boost my spirit whenever im feeling down!!
waaaait im not gg to end this post just yet
LEMME TELL YOU GUYS
in case youbare wondering why am i super weird writing about all these craps
it is most probably bcs im a secondary 4student now. the reality of being a sec4 has not really sunk in until about March (i guess?) therefore whenever i have free time to blog, i do so by putting all my heart in it. this results in super lengthy blog post with irrelevant and incoherent content inside so mind you free souls with much more things to do, you know what to expect the next time i post something HAHAHAHA
tbh, i have mixed feelings about this blog. as i get okder, ibstarted thinking about having a more private life where no outsiders really know what is gg on with my life. i mean, im not one of those kardashians who make money by revealing about their full-of-fights lives which are certainly hilarious ( all hail kimmy k), instead im just another girl living abroad with many new stories to tell others. but as i pondered about stop blogging, the more i cannot hold back that side of me that simply urges me to always share my rants to others. if you know me personally, you would have realized that im a very vocal person, yet i always carry the role of an advisor and listener. it is never a balanced relationship you are going to have if you are friends with me. i rarely talk about my own feelings or if im feeling troubled and that i need help. the reason to thisbis simple: i dont want to spread negativity to the people around me. the world is already filled with judgemental people who are discontented with their own lives that they decided to judge on others' characteristics to find satisfaction in others' misery. i mean, isnt it sad looking at our fellow friends who are oblivious to the fact that personal contentment never comes from others' sufferings? im not being hypocritical here by saying that im always the 'angel' in my circle of friends and that people around me are all judgemental people, but i would like to minimize that ruptured social fabric that we have now. i am an extreme optimist who believes that by working hard and showing passion in everything we do, there is almost nothing that is impossible. so through this deep monologue that i have repetitively at night, i decided to not think too much about the reader of my blog. even if there is no one who read this crappy page of mine, it is completely fine. im happy being able to share my views to the world, im happy that i can find comfort in telling random people i do not know about my boring daily ups and downs. it is just my personal preference of confiding in people i do not know at all. so dont worry(not sure if anyone will), i will never close this page. even if i regret whatever I said in my previous posts, i will let this page be an evident of my bittersweet life which i am sure, is filled with many amazing yet unpredictble experiences.
all in all, i have 2 tests tomorrow and i filed in all that are going to be tested neatly, put them in a special file with different tabs to organize them better, and put it next to my backpack so that i will not forget it. i went to the band room for cca, get out of it after 3 hours, skipped happily back home just to find myself empty handed. THANKS MY FORGETFUL SELF. ( you are welcome)
it is not the real o levels yet so WHATEVAAAAAAAA
bye friends, i'll be sure to update once i have more free time:))))))
reserved by,
msmarettasimon
