i want them now. I DEMAND, NOW. (+edmund ofcoz :()

bye guys......

.....

...

..

.

the title is called a title

i suck at introduction but wait what its 2k15 :000000

I have been abandoning this blog for almost half a year probably? 

time flashed and who knows I'm no longer home. 

I actually needed to read through my last post to be able to write something with at least some relevance with other posts.

Before continuing on, let me warn you, this post is gonna be wordy. w-o-r-d-y :0

SO mother of all so-s (idk what this really means) to be honest I dont have the courage to delete this blog as it is where I can actually view my so-called life progress from a tiny kiddo to still a kiddo cause I refuse to grow up (at least I claim so). Through this decision I hope that I can be comitted to writing posts although not regularly but as long as I still do.

I hope you are getting excited and cuious by what I mean that I am no longer home although I bet no one really wants to know, I am gonna write a wordy post anyway.

To make things clear, I am currently living in Singapore. yas and I am here on my own.

ok not 'literally' alone as I have my sister and friends here, but it really is a journey of leaving behind all the people you love, the routine you thought was a torture but it turned out be something you miss dearly, the hideous spots and roads of your hometown, your home. Plainly speaking, it was indeed, it WAS my biggest wish to be here, studying in scgs, living independently, everthing.

But now it just does not feel the same. 

What I thought and assumed before I am really here is completely contrasting; some in a good way, some in the worse. 

However, it was still my prudent choice to be here and I cannot say that I regret coming all the way here because I have faith in myself that this is a fruitful journey worth the rough seas. 

[this post is getting serious and depressed gosh]

Not to scare everyone of scgs and Singapore, I think it might be just me who is not adapted to the education system and the circle of friends I have here.

It's pretty normal, I think, to feel kind of alone at times cause a piece of your heart was left behind, buried under the roof of your previous precious school where you spent the time of your life there.

And I am not even the type that breaks down easily. Instead, I am more of the polished rocks that hold the high energy caused by the plunging breakers of life challenges. ok I just felt that I had enough of geog, I never imagined having soooooo many geog lesson in a week it's just kinda tiring to me.

School here has been super hardcore in terms of its tests and homework, especially when you are being watched closely by the teachers. that sometimes lead me to comparing what I had before and what the reality is like in the future.

In order to make this post free from the alleged title of 'just Maretta's random rants that have a huge possibility to change to an essay full of complaints' let me tell you how I feel life in here is specifically like, especially school life.

Think of yourself as a busy bee living and working in a bee colony, where there are hudred other worker bees trying their best to serve the queen bee.

That is how competition in scgs is like as I can foresee.

The difference is that I can still not find any queen bee yet. yet.

So yeah, competition is the daily feed here.

But to be (again) honest, I love competition.

I just find the number of tests ad homework given to us irrelevant at times.

Overall, it is a nice school with nice green environment and caring teachers, probably it is just that I still cannot find that group of friends (excpet those who came with me) that I can really bond with.

It takes time, I know and I am pretty satisfied with what I have now.

As far as I can see, school's gonna get better in terms of friends, I strongly believe so.

Ugh actually I JUST REALLY MISS MY FRIENDS back home.

and my school.

it is that feeling where you get up every morning knowing you will have a bunch of activities tgt with them, shoulder feeling light and giggles are never wiped off your face.

I ALSO MISS DANCING SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH

anyway I gonna get what I really really want in a few week times;)

I have no idea how much I have written and how unorganized this post is, cause I basically just pour out whatever I have in mind here, so yeah.

I just had this Service Learning Carnival in school where we are staying in school to prepare for a self-orgnized event to serve the elderly. 

All sec3s are involved and it was HELL at first but the real day of carnival was AWESOME to me. 

Looking at those smiling faces of the elderly when they played games and just talk to us students just melt my heart. 

I think a lot about my grandparents and I cannot wait to give them a BIG BIG HUG :3333

Oh and I was involved in performance and the ppl are very supportive too.

I still couldnt believe it that I SANG I freakin sang with this croaking-worse-than-a-crow voice (of course backed up by the choir ha) in the performance itself.

I think I should stop here cause apparently my eyes are giving up and I just love sleeping above most thing on earth. LAST FUN THING TO TELL : OBS IS ON THE COMING MONDAY.

yeay can I scream.

I am going to go kayaking and sleeping in tent which is completely COOL cant wait man gosh I cant.

Okay I should really stop.

Last last note to everyone and self : I am blessed to be where I am at; what lies in front of me is in His hands and I trust Him that He has the best choice and plans for me. 

----------------------------------ADIOS AMIGO--------------------------